Lost In Sanity

So I am starting this very distractedly. Nicole is online and it is the first time I have had a conversation with her in months. I miss the girl. I think Nicole is settling with a boy. Kind of sad. But. My ideal of Nicole is the only thing that makes it sad. I am sure she is just happy with the boy. Who wouldn't be? It is Mike for goodness sake. My sister is up for the week. She arrived yesterday morning. We killed the early hours in religious debate. Where she found out that I am not the idiot that Mom and Dad would like to make her believe. She also found out I know my bible for better then she does even though I haven't been reading it or studying it for years. I was bringing up a lot of the violent past of the church. How judging and self righteousness is causing so much conflict in the world. We all have different religious works and we all have different versions of God and what he commands. They all think it is something to kill and fight over. I think they are all rediculous and sit down in front of the six o'clock news half entertained and half disgusted by humanity.

I am disturbed by the mindsets of my siblings. I really am. They are thoroughyl indoctrinated. But of course that makes sense. They were homeschooled. Not allowed to hang out with non-christians. We were kept in this religious bubble. One I discovered fairly early in life rubbed me the wrong way. I wish they would fucking wake up. I try my best to open their eyes with common sense when I see them. Because I know for a fact I am more aware of the world and what is happening in it then they are there. I am also well educated in the bullshit Christians feed their kids. Like the fact that they tell their kids that scientists won't go on the air with creation scientists because they are scared. But that is just religious propaganda. I know for fact people like David Suzuki have tried to have creation scientist Kent Hovind on the air a few times. But he won't do it. I will tell you why. He is a pseudo-scientist fuck head. Who is just shoving a bunch more misinformation to the masses that they will gobble up. Yes Henri. Misinformation. It exists.

Freedom of thought still exists with right and wrong. It just gives you the right to think right and wrong things. I think you have free thought defined wrong. I want my siblings to break free of this social prison. That in my mind is all religion is. It destroys a person. It destroys the want to explore and to learn and to expand on knowledge. Because anything that goes "against God", they won't even look into. It is a beautiful system the Christians have created. The fear of hell is still strong. But everytime I turn a Christian against their belief. I honestly feel like a better person. I love my siblings very much. Them being rooted in a system of ignorance really does hurt me to see. Especially when a lot of the time I feel very powerless. How can you fight a lifetime of indoctrination with only the few isolated days in your life you see your family? It is an incredibly daunting task. I feel like I am up against the proverbial beast. Only in this case, the beast is God and religion. Not the enemy of God. I often wonder if we will ever rid ourselves of it.

Something that is hampering human growth and development. It is a system of control that has to stop. There have been enough victims of it to last the rest of existence of humanity. Millions of deaths have already happened in the name of God. Lets please try and stop this now. We live in the 21st century! What the fuck are we thinking! Not very much I don't think. We need a nice large natural disaster to wipe a majority of us out. Maybe if we start from scratch we will start off better this time. But I somehow have my doubts that that is what would happen. Henri is skirting switching brains with me. When I brought it up, she just started going on about some play. Way to change the subject huh? I want to know if red is red. People seem particularily attached to their brains. I don't know what it is. Chickens. I have a double today and tomorrow. My feet are killing me and will probably be murderous this next couple days. My boss has been very greatful for my hard work though. Haha. I live to make her happy. Literally it feels like that.

I see her more than anyone else. I am at my job more then anywhere else. By quite a long shit at that. Haha. I said "shit" instead of "shot" by accident. I am going to leave it because I like it. T-minus one week until I get a two day break from work and Jaime is here. It would be nice to see Martin and Michelle since they are comnig to Toronto. I miss those kids a hell of a lot. Anyways, I am going to sign off on this. I hope you all have a glorious day. Cheers!