Neuronal Disorder State

You kids should give Augury a listen too. They are an amazing Montreal metal band. Very fast. Very timely in their conclusions of pieces of their composition. They also have an Opera Singer whch goes really well with the music. Kind of that creepy tone that sends shivers up your spine in a good way. Listen to their album "Concealed". I wouldn't regret it if I were you. But I am not you. There is some incredibly interesting music out there. Which is why it blows my mind that there are people out there who consider shit like Regina Spektor, or how ever you spell her name, but they find her music interesting. When I heard it trumped up for so long then heard it, it struck me as incredibly dull and boring. On very rare occasions, there is a charm to simplicity in music. But I find it incredibly rare. Repetition really bores me. And it seems to be the corner stone of most musical composiotn out there. How can you not have the creative energy to fill a four minute space with music that doesn't start again where it has already been? Why can't the music constantly progress to a finish?

Even the movies that do that suck. Car chase scene. Fight scene. Love scene. Chase scene again. You get my drift. It was a gorgeous temeperature outside last night. Did any of you guys get out there for a bit? It was about twenty degrees outside. Which was incredibly refreshing after feeling 41 with the humidex. I am feeling uninspired and empty this morning. I wonder what causes it? Because it seems to just happen at random times. I don't feel depressed or sad. I don't have a lot on my mind. I don't really have any stresses. There are a couple things I have a problem with that I will deal with. But it isn't really stressing me out. Because as I said, I will deal with it. Just somedays I feel... I don't know, I can't really describe it. But I don't have the explosive energy that I so often have. I generally feel really good in the mornings. Something about the beginning of the day. I have learned to recognize my newly charged batteries. I remember throughout a lot of my teen years and adult-hood I would always feel tired in the mornings. Haha.

Or usually I wouldn't get up in the A.M. Now when I wake up in the afternoon, I feel kind of ashamed of myself for missing so much of the day and throwing my sleep schedule so fucking out of whack. But sometimes I happen to go to bed really late and need the sleep. Especially if I am working later. But I definately prefer to work in the mornings. I have turned into one of those assholes who are chipper and cheery in the mornings. Haha. I used to hate those people. Maybe I will hate myself someday. Jesus Christ I forgot how intense Origin are. I have never heard a faster drummer I doubt. He doesn't use a cheat trigger either on his double kick. So what you hear is as fast as he is. He is faster then most people with triggers are that I have heard. If I was a woman, and Origin was a man. The music would be them coming in my asshole against my will, but screaming with delight. In other words, the music is intrusive, harsh, and amazing. It is a sensory rape scene. If only they would come to Toronto. Fuck I haven't had a cigarette yet this morning.

I am drinking delicious french vanilla coffee. So I kind of have to couple one with the other. So I will BRB kids! Fuck. I just smashed my funny bone off of the chair arm. I didn't laugh in the slightest. I have been fooled all these years that it was a gag. My boss brought me back Chianti right from the region while she was in Europe. I drank a bit of it last night. It is amazing. It is very full bodied. Made with the Sangiovese grape. It was also aged Methode Traditionalle. Which means it was aged in the bottle itself. So it is an expensive bottle of wine I am sure. My Grandma has left for the weekend today. She is going up to see my mother. Her daughter. I think she may see fireworks and shit with them. I am happy about having the place to myself until I leave for Toronto. I can blast my metal when I feel the need. Which is pretty constant. I often do get the opportunity when I wake up in the mornings. Old retired people always seem to have errands to run in the mornings. What she does is beyond me. My cat is always playing hard to get. She will rub up against the wall and give me those cute slowly blinking eyes at me and want me to pet her.

I will go to do so and she will run a little bit out of my reach, rub up against something again, give me that look again, and repeat. Haha. Cats are such bitches. I love it. But I will just then ignore her and then she will scare the shit out of me by jumping into my lap while I am typing. It is shocking having multiple pounds land in your crotch region. She has injured me a couple times. But damn do I love my cat. I could never be mad at her. I always throw pillows at her and shit. She used to always dodge them and shit. but it seems she likes it now and always lets the pillow land on her and just lies underneath it until I walk by her then pounces at me in retaliation. Haha. What an animal. She loves to fuck around with me. Whenever she is full of beans and has a ton of energy, she always comes and harasses me until I play with her and chase her around the house and shit. I love to keep my cats predatory instincts alive. I like her being cute and cuddly part of the time. But I also love to see my cat always be on her toes. You who haven't met one of the main women in my life (my cat) really need too. She is beautiful and great. I think I am going to wrap up for the day here kids. I hope you had a lovely one. I hope those of you who had prom last night had a great time. Cheers!