Eve of Contempt

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Hey kids. Check out the band Spiral Architect. They are damn good. I personally find the singer annoying. But that is based on my personal taste. You might like him. The music is fantastic. It really is. The singer sounds like one of those 80's hair metal singers. I fucking hate that. But some people seem to dig it. Which is mind-blowing to me. But I guess everything I can't stand, that other people like is mind-blowing to me. So how are all you fucks I know who don't have air conditioning, bearing the heat? My heart goes out to you. It really does. Just having a cigarette in the thickness out there is skin melting. I can't imagine trying to sleep in it. I have the vent for air conditioing right above my bed. I can angle it to blow right at me if I do so desire. But I stopped doing that because my throat would get incredibly dry because of it. My throat still does somewhat. But I value sleep more than a moist throat. I am a smoker. I am used to dry breathing canals. Lauren is coming over again today. But not until I am done work. I have tomorrow off so she decided to come back into the Miss. Sauga. We will get up to no good I am sure. Maybe I will try and talk her into getting rid of her hippy dreads. Damned hippies. Damned dreads. At least she isn't vegetarians. I don't trust anyone who can't eat a helpless animal. (I should have gotten rid of Jimmy years ago) You want to hear something sweet? It is something I have talked about a bit here in my blog. How I wanted a kind of polyamorous open relationship. Well it has come true. And it was pretty simple. It was basically like this:

Jaime: You want to be in an open relationship with me?

Me: Sure.

Jaime: Really?

Me: *pause for thought* Yeah really. I don't see any good reason why I wouldn't.

It is semi-long distance which is perfect for these things. The whole shitty thing about long distance relationships is that people are afraid of the other cheating on them and betraying them. But we have removed that aspect. It is a pretty comfortable situation. Then I asked her "what if you fall for me?" She said "Well then you will have a sexy commited girlfriend." Like I said to her, "Sounds win win to me." The fact that I am just getting to know her makes it all the more fascinating too. Because I don't have to be "boyfriend" material to someone I don't know very well. I can just get to know her and I don't have to fill the quota that a normal relationship demands. I wouldn't know how to for her due to the fact that I don't know her to well yet. But she is a teenager. How hard can it be to get to know her? I think I had a conversation with her yesterday about the simplicity of humans. But I don't feel like talking about it again. I had an incredibly difficult time last night. Coast to Coast, the talk radio show I listen to every night about fringe theories and shit where talking about demon possession and especially dopple-gangers.

You know, when your pure evil side tries to kill you. Takes on a physical seperate entity as a second and attacks you. They were interviewing women who had been raped and beaten by some sort of spirit. They have of course ghost chasers and shit like that out there. There is a job for everything I think. But they were video taping inside this one woman's house because she claimed at night some spirit would grab her by the throat. Something invisible she could not see, and straddle her, pin her down. fuck her with some object and beat her. Well they did catch it on video. They were talking to this woman last night. They believe they have exorcized the spirit. She hasn't felt it in months. But on the video you can see her clothes moving up of their own free will. Marks from being beaten coming out of nowhere. Those screams of terror seemed pretty real to me. Really crazy shit let me tell you. No I don't believe everything I see or take it at face value. But this seemed pretty real. It really did. I am quite confident there are realms out there I don't understand.

I am only a simple four dimensional creature. That I know of anyway. Maybe I have other dimensions in other dimensions but my brain hasn't evolved enough to understand them. I only use a small percentage of my mind after all. Maybe telekinesis and reading minds will be powers accesible once We have use of the full power of the human mind. Because there are some people who can do that. Maybe they are the beginning of the next evolutionary step of humanity. If so, we have some crazy times coming. I don't know if I would want the human race to have that kind of power. Though it would almost be like one big funny social experiment. Only everyone dies in the end and no one is laughing. I linked the title of this post people. Go to the website. It is a place I spend hours on. Fascinating shit. Also those C.I.A. de-classified documents are on there. I am slowly perusing through them. I am most interested in who they have assasinated. I don't think they would admit J.F.K.

But it is the first thing I thought of when I heard the news. I was really fucking hoping that they would tell all on that one. Especially since the information they are releasing is from that time frame. But I don't think they ever will. I love how blogger automatically saves my posts every minute. You guys have no idea how many times I accidently close it. It would make me homicidally angry before they added the auto save. I would close something else. And my computer would lag, so I would click the "X" again only it was actually my blogging window underneath that window. Just the lag didn't show me right away the other window going and I would just assume I missed with my cursor clicking on the "X". Haha. You would think it is something I would learn not to do. But I also have learned a trick to prevent that from happening. Too bad I don't remember it that often. I just keep two or more tabs open, so if I accidently click the "X" on the window, the little box will come up asking me if I really want to close all tabs. Which of course, usually I don't.

I am so glad Explorer got tabbed browsing. I much prefer it to Mozilla. I type a lot. Sometimes I wonder if carpel tunnel is ever going to affect me. Because I personally like having functioning hands. They are good for lots of things. But to lose the ability to masturbate is a terrible fate. I think there would be a lot more murders in the world. Or you just need some really good friends. Or a fuck buddy. Something along those lines. Oh yes I was going to give you a bit more info on that site I have linked on my title. It is an alternative theories sites. It is a place where people talk about UFO sightings. There are a lot of videos up there. You remember those photos of the other side of the moon showing radio towers and buildings and other sights making people think there was intelligent life there? All this stuff can be found on this site. I get lost in it for hours. A lot of people like to brush alternative theories under the carpet. I know a lot of it is bullshit (like anything else). But there is a lot of compelling evidence in that area as well. Check into it.

Then maybe someone other then Jimmy can carry a conversation with me about fringe theories. Nicole, I forgot to look at my schedule for the next week yesterday. I will do that today. I usually only look when I am working one day ahead. It is one of my habits. I hope you are having an incredible time out there. I often consider e-mailing you and telling you what has been up in my life. But this pretty much tells you all that is important. But if you want me to write you personally I will. I want to know how much money you won/lot in Las Vegas. Jesus fuck. There is a city I need to go to on some mad hallucinogens. Acid preferably. I would just love the experience no matter what. Very strange flamboyant culture there. it intrigues me and I will go soon. Today is my ast day of an insane stretch of work. I am going to enjoy my day off tomorrow. As much as I possibly can. I hear it is supposed to rain. But it will be a warm rain. So I probably will venture out in it for a wee bit. I like summer rain. Haha. That as far as I am gonig with that. Too bad liking things like that seems so pretentious these days and I feel self-conscious about describing the joy I get out of it. Damn romance novelists ruined my fucking fun! Anyways folks. I love you all and all. But I have given you enough of my time. Cheers!