Life changes

So. This is a post where I am going to fill everyone in on my life. Something amazing has happpened. But a lot of you won't agree. Well I want to say that I am back together with Morgan. I know half of you are going to say I am stupid and the other half are going to be happy for me. But it would be nice if everyone could just be happy for me. A lot of you peoples perceptions of Morgan are based solely on my angry reaction to her cheating on me. Don't get me wrong, it hurt. But evidently I love her so much it negates that. Plus there were definately periods in our relationship where I was an aasshole to her. I would scream "cunt" in her face and had just lost some semblence of my humanity. There were months that I treated her shittily. Not like you are supposed to treat someone you love. So in some ways I reaped what I had sown. It is a hard way to learn life lessons. But you learn nonetheless. There were even times where she would try to leave and I would grab her and prevent her from doing so. I want you all to know both sides of this story. Morgan has done amazing things for me. She loved me sooo very much through months of me treating her like garbage. Trust me I did. I would be snappy and irritable with her. I was a controlling douche. She opened me to a sexual world I thought was permanently harmed from a fucked childhood. I am not an innocent victim in all this. I was guilty of victimizing the girl I loved most in this world. In the end I victimized myself and betrayed myself. I want you all to understand. The anger previously expressed was just that. Anger. It is an irrational intense feeling. One that did die off as you saw in my blog. I love Morgan. I truly do. If you can be my friend you can try and understand it. I don't want people telling me this is a stupid idea because she is a bitch. I love her so I won't stand for people talking about her that way. If you don't like that I am with her, say so. But then drop it. Don't be on my case about it over and over. I want Morgan to be loved and accepted in this group of fine people as I am. Most of you accept me though I have been a fuck up and human. She deserves the same if not more. I have never loved like I have loved her. Ever. Maybe if you can understand that, you will understand me.