Sierra Attractions

Good morning everyone. I got to sleep in today. The first time I have been able to since I got back from my weekend up north. I wake up this morning to a deep man's voice in my living room. That is what mainly got me up. Curiosity and making sure my Grandma is OK. I did not recognize the voice at all. Well it is a Christian encouragement CD. It just sais shit like "even though mine enemies surround me in the valley of death, I will fear nothing. The Lord is constantly watching over me and is protecting me with the body of armour and salvation. His sacrifice has cleansed me with his blood making me worthy to enter into his gates where for eternity I will live forever in his presence. As a perfect being with my creator." etc. etc. It is really reall creepy. Monotonous voice that reminds me of those hypnosis guides. Though not quite that bad. Haha. Maybe my Grandmother felt negative energy seep into that Christian bullshit. She turned it off when I was writing about it. Thank God. Or whatever force controls me. Or maybe it is me.

If that is so, just assume that everytime I say "thank God" out of habit, that I am just thanking myself for where I am. Because more than likely I am my own God. So far I make the ultimate decisions in my life and as far as I know have absolute control over what happens to me. I like the idea of only having myself to blame for anything that goes wrong anyway. Makes it easier to fix. Assuming nothing is within your control I would think is a weakness. Why do anything if you can't control it? It would be a terrible state of mind.I got this random message from someone I don't know on Facebook the other day. Most people probably wouldn't have laughed because they are socially programmed to react to such things. Anyways, all the message said was, there are some things in this world I just really don't like, and the Jews are one of them. So shoot me. So I just messaged him back. Curious as to why it is the Jews that get the brunt of his dislike as far as humanity goes. Who knows. Maybe he has a good reason.

Maybe a Jewish man shot his Father, raped his Mother and cut her throat and then paralyzed him from the waist down. If that was the case, that there would be justifiable hate I would think. You may argue it isn't grounds to hate the whole race though. No it probably isn't. But it is human nature. Even as a driver, anyone who runs into a bad Asian driver once or twice, you watch, in their mind all of sudden the whole race are shitty fucking drivers. And I guarantee they won't notice the good ones. You know why? Good drivers are inconspicuous. How would you feel about black people if you lived in Harlem? These are tough questions to ask yourself. What is tough about them is how natural it seems to be to divide ourselves from others and hate and judge. It is still very common. Just less socially acceptable. Which is a good step. Racists feel like they would be socially judged if they acted on those feelings. Keeps hate a little bit more in check then it otherwise would be. Not saying there is no hate out there now. We are just good with these things. We no longer have "niggers" and all that.

We just create wars on drugs and shit like that. Most of the inept drug users getting caught are poor and a lot of poverty is in the black population or even immigrants in general. We just re-package hate. We are incredibly good at it. Make it look new and call it something different so maybe it will be acceptable for longer. See how long it takes for us to catch on. Ahhh hate. I somehow doubt we can live without it. It is humanities fuel. It may pollute our good sense and kindness, but for some reason it helps us thrive. We have lasted this long I guess. I doubt you are going to change it. If you do, hats off in respect. But you won't. Make your moviees. Write your books. Make people more "aware" if you will. I am a cynic in these matters. I have no faith in humanity becoming the written ideal of what we should be. Because I think we are probably just the way we are supposed to be. Anyways, I am going to wrap this up for the day. I hope you all are having a smashing good day thus far. Cheers!

P.S. I ordered a Psycroptic shirt yesterday. It was really fucking expensive. Most band shirts are around fourteen bucks. This was twenty five and plus it is coming from Australia. But it has an amazing design. I will put it on the top of this post.