Of Cursed Womb

Good morning everyone. How was your weekend? I had a pretty good one I must say. Got to see a lot of people I hadn't seen in a while. I saw a lot of the crew I saw at Summerfolk. The kids who left when the metal was shut off. But no one was shutting us down tonight. Or whining about it for that matter. So Saturday was the day I left. I had to work early in the morning though. So I was up around ten to six in the morning. Got packed showered and all that other bullshit. Went to work. Had to dump my coffee out because my heart was doing some very fucked up shit that I didn't trust. It hurt a lot. Haha. Enough for me to dump out a coffee. Anyways. I got off work and went and met Kris and Sadie at the bus stop. My Grandma picked us up to drive us to Guelph. I bought a four pack of Red Bull to come with me. I had been up until about two the night before and as I said was up before six and I knew I had to stay up to a decent hour to make this worth the commute. We made it to Keith's and Josie's at about three o' clock. When we got there we just sat around talking.

Listened to the new album By Behold... The Arctopus I am currently listening to while writing this. It is called Skullgrid. Go buy it now or live on as fools. I drank a Red Bull soon after I got in the door. It was lovely. Soon after Kris and Sadie wanted to go to the grocery store and buy some food to cook since it is cheaper then eating out. I decided to purchase my booze then. I went into the beer store and saw KLB Raspberry Wheat Ale. I told you all about tasting it at the Amsterdam Brewery with Kris and Corey. So I bought a 12 pack of it. Jesus Christ is it just as delicious as I remembered. After doing all this shit we went back to the house and tried streaming the hockey game to no avail. So we just listened to it and the Leafs slaughtered New York 4-1. I was a happy man. I won money of course. I saw a lot of people over the course of the evening. Lets see. All of them pretty much old Owen Sound people too. I saw Kris, Jimmy, Sadie, Maggie, Liam, Keith, Josie, Dougsy, Meghan, Steve, Kiel, Laura, Tom, Tommy, Anne... Could be more. But I forget.

But I saw a shitload of people I knew. In fact I think there was only one person at that party that night that I didn't know. Tom always brings these dead eyed quiet stoners with him. I heard him say he was a philosophy student at one point during the night. That was enough for me to warrent never having a conversation with him. As they say, Philosophy is for fags. I had a good time. Smoked more pot in one evening then I probably have in years. Plus Josie Made Pot Apple Crisp. It was exactly what the name implies. It was made in a pot. Haha no. It had marijuana in it. We also watched the two new Southparks. Imagination Land 1 and 2. Oh and I also can't not mention that I saw good ol' Mike Yuke. Some of the people who showed up came on their way to a costume party. So they were all dressed up cutely. I didn't feel like myself a lot of the night. Pot does that to me when I feel like I have to live up to some sort of expectation when I am around people.

I was generally comfortable. There was just this one point when I was having a conversation with Maggie about I think she was talking about a speeding ticket she got lucky on because it was knocked down quite a bit and she was very nervous about it all. But that conversation was a window to perpetuate more conversation. But between my drunkeness, my being high especially, and being tired, I just didn'f feel capable. Which is a weird thing to feel incapable. I was disappointed in myself when they left. But soon forgot about it until now when I was mentally reviewing my weekend. It actually made me consider some things. A lot of these people I only seem to see in party situations anymore. So there perception of me right now is someone who is always drunk and high. Haha. I don't get opportunities to communicate with them in the sober world. Which is the best way to communicate despite all your objections. So I made a conscious decision that night to party more while sober. Why not? Why do I feel this need to get intoxicated when I am with large groups of people?

I don't connect as much with them. Unless it is just on an artificial or sexual level that I dfon't even remember that clearly. Plus I am just getting to old for it. I don't even go out of my way to meet that many new people or go to large parties anymore. They hold no appeal whatsoever. I am usually tired and in poor shape to connect with new people and putting forth the effort it requires to get to know them. Lately I don't feel that different from my days of doing far too many drugs. I am not suffering lack of sleep from amphetamines. Just my social duties of working and making money. But I am still exhausted all the time. Caffeine seems to be a neccesity to keep my feet under me for any extra curricular social activities. Then again. As I said. I may just be getting old. God I hope not. Though I am 24 soon. As I said before and I will say it again. Someone should buy me a 2-4 for my birthday. I will drink one every hour of my birthday. But yes anyways.

I think I have decided next time I go to Guelph which is hopefully before next years Cracktoberfest, I am going to go sober. I don't remember the last time I partied completely sober. That is kind of sad. Then again I don't know anyone who ever really goes to parties sober. So I will have the upper hand. Haha. I will have my trusty Red Bull and cigarettes. Nothing else. Jimmy brought me Vanilla Sweet Dreams. Everyone who smoked there I believe tried one. Of course they were a hit. Later in the evening it was in the morning for sure Tom and I decided we had a cravng for Mcdonald's only to find it was closed. Fucking Guelph. So we ate at Quiznos. Over priced, delicious subs. We headed back after and went to bed. I slept decently that night. Woke up around noon I think and Josie cooked us a delicious breakfast of eggs, patatoes,and pancakes. We watched a couple of Don Cherry's Rock 'em Sock 'Ems. Haha was it ever awesome after that Jimmy, Kris, Sadie, and I decided to catch a bus. Kris and Sadie went on the Go Bus. Jimmy and I went on Greyhound because Jimmy needed to be back quicker. He had to work that evening.

We got back and went to Sunrise Records to try and get Leftover Crack tickets. They told us we had to go to Rotate This to get them. So we went to Jimmy's so he could shower and then headed to Rotate This and was told there that it was an event that you bought the tickets at the door. So Jimmy headed to work and I came home. I was quite tired. But I had a six hour energy shot on the way back. I had never tried them before. I had had the five hour energy shots. But this was the first time I had seen these. It was a dollar more then the five hour ones which I thought was over priced. It was one third more expensive for one fifth more the energy. I came home and wrote Jaime an e-mail. She had wrote me about her weekend and the happenings at Martin's. So all in all I had a pretty great weekend. Jimmy and I want Cracktoberfest to be in Toronto next year. We think it would be more fun. Tom Hiley is going to be in Owen Sound visiting his woman next weekend the same time I am.

So I was talking to him about going on a double date. Which would be fun as hell because Tom is a fucking great guy and I haven't met his lady friend yet. Anyways I think I am going to wrap this up and head off to work. I got to do the load today which is quite large. It will be a good work out. I think it is better then I had thought. I beat everyone including Keith in chin-ups at the party. They had a chin up bar on their workout room door. I am actually surprised since Keith is my friend who is a body builder. He told me it is because I am lighter that I won. But I am only less than a third lighter then him and his muscles are wayyyyy biger then mine. So I think I can handle more pounds per square inch then he can. It makes me want a chin up bar. It was a good workout too. We didn't do it the classic way of your knuckles facing away from you. We did it so that your knuckles were facing out and that your arms were spread to the farthest parts of the bar. So it is a lot tougher of a way to do it. Haha. Imagine if we got a load of wine everyday. i would be the next Arnold. Haha. Anyways. I was going to wrap this up. I hope you all had a lovely weekend and hope to see you soon. Cheers!