Bitch's Handbag Full Of Money

Good morning everyone. How has your weekend been going? Don't answer that. I actually don't really care. I was just being polite. But if you are reading this you obviously care about mine. You must feel like a piece of shit realizing your interest in my life is far greater then mine in yours. Haha. I am just kidding kids. Go cry and cut your wrists some other time when it really matters. I worked my ass off yesterday morning. Got a lot of the inventory done then. Have to finish the rest of it off today. Right after work I headed down to my Uncle Kevin's house to the surprise. I have told you all about him before I think. My very rich Uncle. This is a three quarter of a million dollar home and it is gorgeous. My Uncle was showing me yesterday how he goes on his computer and watches his security cameras from work. There is voice activated shit in it and everything. My Grandma was very surprised. I was happy to see her have such a lovely time there. All three of her children where there and all but Two of her grandchildren. The guests and friends stayed until about four and then left.

The dinner was only for family. It was a lovely dinner too. Chicken breasts, fettuccini alfredo, greek salad, and garlic bread. I brought a bottle of Inniskillin Cabernet Merlot. A nice 2003. Garnet in colour. It had a strong ripe fruity nose to it. It had a nice strong cherry and tobbacco finish. I quite enjoyed it. We also were drinking a baby merlot. It was a 2006. It wasn't bad. But the wine I had brought was far superior to it. My whole family except my brother was there. I was disappointed by that. I really wanted to see the boy. Didn't really care to see my father. But I was civil. It was uncomfortable. We tried to have a conversation I think twice throughout the day. Both times it drifted off into an uncomfortable silence. I don't care about his life and he doesn't care about mine and we are both terrible at faking interest. Hell I don't even like the guy. I just love him because he came in my Mom. But it was awesome to see all my brothers and sisters. I got both my sisters to taste my wine. They got grimaces on their face. haha. But Faith drank it like three times.

So she didn't hate it too much I don't think. I got to see my little brother Micah again. He is only 7 months old. I have only met him once before. So I spent a large portion of the day with him in my arms. He is a very happy baby and loved me. He kept wanting to play with the nose stud. Haha. Little bastard. But I just let him play with my facial hair instead. I got pretty drunk I must say. The first time I have ever been drunk in front of the parents and family before I believe. I was actually telling that to Jaime the other day on the phone. That I had been high in front of them before, but never drunk. But not only was I drunk in front of them, but I got drunk in front of them. It loosened me up. My cousin and my Aunt and Uncle all got tipsy as well. All those kids in his house I think was stressful for him. I would think it would be. If I had a house that expensive I wouldn't want that many kids in it either. I also had a little drunken conversation with my Uncle about investing. He has been quite good at it in his lifetime so I talk to him about it and try to learn as much as I can.

Economics and the stock market is an incredibly complicated thing let me tell you. I felt a little down last night. I think I was just over tired. But I have been tired for the last six months. I need a vacation. I mean an actual vacation. Two weeks off in a warmer climate where I just lounge on the beach in the sun and let all my exhaustion sweat out. A bunch of us where supposed to go to Cuba this winter. But I haven't heard anything else about it recently. Jon if you are still planning on it tell me. Because I think I may do it whether you guys do it or not. It is a slower time of the year at The Wine Rack. So I could get a week or two off then. I would prefer to go with someone. but at the same time, my first time off the continent it would be interesting to do myself. I can completely be me, or whoever I want me to be. I am in a place in the world where no one has met me. I could put on an accent, dress like a woman, whatever. It wouldn't matter, none of them would know who I am really anyway. It would be like having a completely new life for a small period of time in my life.

I can see that being a very therapeutic thing. My Mom gave me a bible yesterday. Anyone want one? I already have one. I am not against owning one. But I don't need to own a million like a lot of people like too. I reccomend it as a read. It is kind of relevent to the society that has been constructed around you. I think I have read it maybe three times front to back. Of course I have heard sections shitloads of times more than that from a young life spent in church. I actually want to read it again sometime soon to get it fresher in my memory again. Even though I still find I know the scriptures better then a lot of self proclaimed Christians. An observation I often have been making lately is how we life in a society where people my age are very against any forms of social control. But at the same time, the thing I see most exercising social control is society itself. I make that observation daily. the hypocritical lives of todays young adults who are all about proclaiming freedoms. A prime example of social control I witnessed recently was getting the metal shut off at Summerfolk.

That is a perfect example. But I mean. Even where you can go as far as conversations go. What is suitable to wear. a lot of these things that can make you uncomfortable in social settings is society itself. So come on society! Practice what you preach! I for one would love to live in that society. Don't be proponents of social control. Don't be fuel for the machine that you so adamently oppose in your conversation but support in your life. No wonder we live in an age where a revolutionary is someone who sais fuck on prime time television. Because either we are spineless. Or we just honestly have no fucking clue what we are doing. Maybe we are just stupid. Which is one thing I can believe of humanity. We are brilliant innovators. But at the same time, we can be such fucking idiots. That is probably what makes us so very fascinating. I am sure something must be out there and making a reality show out of our race here on earth. I for one would watch it. Wait. I do. At 8 A.M. 12 P.M. 6 P.M. and 11 P.M. It is called the news. We have become our own laughing stock.

If our human race is a reality show somewhere in the galaxy, how much air time do you think you get? Haha. I have thought that before. Maybe one time I would have gotten more when my life was a little more fucked up and I was much more entertaining to watch. I don't think I make a blip on the radar anymore. Which is fine by me. I am just trying to figure out where I belong right now. I think I am getting close to my niche. I already feel like I am in it as far as a career goes. I am just not at the point where I am making enough money yet or have enough time off. But it will come. After I figure all this out, I got to find something to believe in. Because I don't think I have anything really to believe in in my life right now. But I also don't thus far feel like it is something I need. I like the search for answers. It is as good of an excuse as any to learn. The most ignorant people I meet are the ones who are sure they have already found the answers. Look at Christians or religion in general. They think they know the answers. I find them to have very little knowlege. Maybe we just always need to be searching. I enjoy the process. Maybe the answers are intentionally kept from us by whatever powers that be because they have seen what us thinking we know the answers does. So we aren't actually at a point where we would know what to do with the truth. Well. I am done typing out my contemplations for today. All these questions, and no answers. It is a beautiful thing. I hope you all have a lovely day. Cheers!