The Insight Eye

Holy fuck wad. I just started listening to a new band I just found out about yesterday. Illogicist They are considered to be under the genre of "Technical Death Metal". Right up my fucknig alley. So I was reading about them. They sounded like something I would like. They are really good I must say. Catchy and groovy too. Anything with some jazz elements in it is something worth grooving too pretty much. It is very halt start again strange phrasaing. Makes me concentrate on it. I like music that begs to be payed attention to, or you have no idea what is going on and get lost as a lot of people would say "in the noise." I really fucked my back this morning. I woke up and thought that clock said 10:30. I have to be at work at that time. So I leaped out of bed faster then you have seen anyone leap. Because I have to open the store. If I had gotten there late we would have lost business. It turned out to be eight thirty. But that jumping out of bed action, really hurt my back. I think I am getting old. Twenty four this year. that is friggen madness.

I can still vividly remember turning thirteen and thinking, "Jesus. Am I a teenager already?" Haha. Little did I know, how young I was then. I think this blog post is going to be a lot shorter today due to me being in a little bit of a rush. But I thought I would spend a few precious minutes here anyway. Yesterday destroyed me. I sold a fuck load of wine again though. But I was exhausted. I went outside to catch a bus home and saw it drive past me. So I had to wait another fourty minutes for it. That blows. Standing and waiting that long at a bus stop when you were just standing for a really long period of time. So I decided to go up to the Mcdonald's grab a coffee. Talk to the people I know. Asmaa was in there. But she was as a customer. She was going to take her kids downtown to a Hillary Duff concert. Fuck! I am pissed I missed it. She is sooooo talented. Heh. Just kidding folks. But I had a good conversation. She was talking about how she was so depressed and wanted to kill herself.

I promptly brought up that I am pretty sure that is a cardinal sin in Islam. She said it was. But one she could live with. Haha. I laughed at that and said "you could live with commiting the sin of suicide?" You are good Asmaa. What I gathered from it even though she was being vague. Is that sher liked someone at work. Someone who wasn't her husband obviously. So she was going to leave the job. Then I brought up divorce again being legal in this country. She told me no that she would never do it. Her children need a father. I told her they can have a father and you can be divorced. Not like it is going to be a great family if the parents don't get along. Better for the parents to split and the kids have to learn to deal with that then them being surrounded by misery. Children pick up on those things better then most parents figure. She is also the only one supporting the family right now too. Her husband can't get work. Apperently he is a landscape architect and he used to teach in London, England. But whenever he goes to get a job, they tell him he is over qualified.

The people interviewing him are afraid some foreigner might get there job because they are better educated. He has tried dumbing down his resume and shit too. It is kind of sad to hear about the struggles of immigrants. Well they are citizens now. I asked her that yesterday. I told her that she should get her husband to have interviews with people more qualified then him then they won't be afraid of him taking their job. 'Tid a sad state of affairs though. Two well educated people living off of one woman's Mcdonald's wages. So they are struggling financially as you can imagine. Two kids and a husband aren't as cheap as they used to be I hear. Though I have never had either. I told her yesterday that if she ever needed financial help to let me know. I got the reply I expected. Her husband would never let her accept help from others. Too proud. I told her there are ways around it. But she is pretty faithful to him even though he is a douche bag. She lives her life for her kids I guess. That I can admire. But I don't think even your kids would want you to throw away your happiness for that. Damn huh. Well I am going to wrap this up for the day. Go head to work and finish getting ready and all that jazz. Cheers folks!