Dance Macabre

Good morning everyone. How did you all sleep last night? Did you all hear about the experiment in harnessing the power of human consciousness? It is a project that was put on by Princeton University. Last night at 11:11 P.M. Greenwhich time. They wanted everyone who heard about it to focus their energies. In six random parts of the world they had put generators. Because there are often reported ripples in electro magnetic fields and such when large things happen that affect humanity. Look up some of the data on these generators after 9/11. Fascinating stuff. So I did my part last night hoping to help discover if we can harness the power that connects us all as a self aware species. They are still compiling data from the experiment. So I don't know yet if anything happened. Most shit like this I would brush off as kind of rediculous. But Princeton is a very reputable scientific school. They are approaching this using science. Haha. Not by bringing a psychic into the room and telling them that there is a higher power at work and saying that must mean something extraordinary is happening.

We love to tag things we don't understand as extraordinary. So I got an anonymous post on my blog yesterday. (to you facebook readers. on my actual blog. not on facebook where it imported too) They said something about my picture that is the headline of my blog being the reason why I should not have a medium to express myself. Which to me is a funny reason. I think the picture is just funny. Hell if I could do that I would be impressed enough to take a picture and I definately would want to add the caption "go fuck yourself". I just hate it when people post that they despise something about me and don't have the guts to put their name to it. Sometimes I bash people in my blog. But I always have the common courtesy to be doing it under my own name and posting it as my own intellectual property. Now obviously I didn't screen the post. Because some anonymous poster isn't going to make me look like an idiot. They just look like fools. I welcome criticism of my writing personality. Really I do. But do it in a way that I can actually respect. I am pretty sure I know who it is.

Thank goodness blogger has an IP tracker. But my point is this in the end. If you feel the need to criticize me, great. I welcome diversity. Just have the common courtesy to have enough confidence in your view for you to not be cowering in a dark closet when you address something that bothers you. With that said. Onto something more productive to talk about. Haha. After saying that I drew a blank. Probably because I limited myself by saying I should write something productive. Where in the end, this isn't about me being productive. This is just me being. Plus I have never found a better way to organize my head and to rationalize all the insanity I see other then just writing about it. Or just writing period. Everything could use a light hearted twist. If I cared about every tragedy and every hurt in the world personally, I would never be able to function. Neither would any of you. As a species with a self aware brain, we can only aspire to be less than pure evil. I don't believe the essence of our existence is good by any means. I am not combatting the good inside me day in and day out.

It is always what is wrong that you are in a constant fight with. Because it is who you are. It is natural. The animal kingdom rape, kill, plunder, destroy. All of it is natural. But as I said. We have a brain so we try to aspire above that. Or who knows. Maybe by trying to aspire to be less than evil, we created evil. Maybe rape doesn't exist in the animal kingdom because the concept of permission is not understood. Maybe there is no such thing as murder because they haven't adopted the bullshit stance that "every life is sacred". In the end, we just may have created all the evil we can spoon feed to future generations. I am not sure. But every other species seem to be doing a lot better than we are. Oh of course besides the ones that are doing shittily because of us. Now don't take me as an animal loving tree hugger. I don't eat a meal unless a certain portion of it had to die to supply my stomach with food. It is so fucking grey out today. If it is grey, I want it to accomplish what it looks like it is going to do. Rain. But if it is just looking like shit and not actually doing anything good. It darkens my mood a little.

Because then I am sitting inside here not going out there afraid of getting poured on. But as every hour passes I realize I could have gone on a long walk and had been dry. What a piss off. Damnit kids. I haven't had a smoke yet and this coffee is so far incomplete without the ceremony. I will be back in about five. Alright. Now I feel more energized. I have been feeling incredibly more restless lately to need to travel. Which sucks because it will definately have to wait before I do so. I know I won't be able to until I become manager. Then I will get three weeks paid vacation a year. On top of that I will be able to afford it on my salary. I just want to take off to Europe for a while. I want to experience Paris. I want fine dining, fine wine, and of course there incredible cigarettes. I want to go to Amsterdam where I can do drugs in a cafe. I want to get a high class prostitute and it not be illegal. I want to experience countries far more liberal then the one I live in. I want to be where it is not legislated what I can and cannot put into my own body. Which in the end should be my right and no one elses business to dictate that. Someday maybe we will wake up to that. Or we will continue letting some ancient scripture tell us what is right or wrong. On that note, I think I am going to wrap this up for yet another day. Have a lovely day folks. Cheers!