Cunt. That is all.

Good morning. I am up later then usual. I was drinking with relatives last night. Went to my Uncle's house after we ate dinner here. His home is fucking beautiful. As it should be considering it is brand new and worth over three quarters of a million. I had a long conversation with my Aunt yesterday. She sat out with me on the balcony. We were both downing wine. But the most amazing part. She had a fucking cigarette with me. That is right. My Mom's adopted sister. Church going, married woman with three kids. She smoked with me. But our conversation was interesting as fuck to say the least. My Aunt is having an affair with her boss. She was catchin gme up yesterday. I don't see my Aunt too often. But when we do see each other we are very honest about each others lives. We both know we are fuck ups in the eyes of our families. But we know we can talk to each other. I mean really incredibly honst conversation. She knew about me doing acid and X and going to a rave. I knew just how good her boss was at eating her out. Very honest refreshing conversation.

I enjoyed myself immensely. Her boss is also married. He has been a while too. My Aunt has a very suspicious husband and her boss has a very suspicious wife. I was telling her to play it cool and be very careful. If she gets caught it hurts her chances of getting custody of the kids when she gets divorced. Now I was asking her why she doesn't just get divorced right now. But there is a bunch of financial bullshit that goes along with it. Her husband is threatening to bankrupt her if she does. They have to sell the house before she can leave him. Half of it is hers. She needs that liquidated obviously because she isn't going to live with him in the same house. I asked her if he was abusive at all. She told me he is emotionally. He has never hit her. But he treats her like a piece of shit. So I want to have a talk with him. Because I have been there. But in the end he deserves to lose her and has to stop being in denial about it. He hasn't kissed his wife in 14 years. Isn't that fucked? He will fuck the shit out of her, but still not kiss her. Very weird if you ask me. Smoke break. BRB!

It has turned out to be a gorgeous day today. Yesterday was pretty fucking cold. I had to actually put a jacket on everytime I went outside. You all should try and listen to the band Nuclear Rabbit. they are incredible. The bassist is amazing. It isn't metal. They are just very good musicians and song writers. So download it kids. Or do whatever it is you do to get music. I think some people still buy it. I don't very often these days due to the price of CD's. Owning them is an expensive hobby. One hard to justify when you can get it all for free. I am going to have to get re-accustomed to Nicole not being around. It is going to be very strange. No Mike. No Nicole. It will be half the party now. But I am sure I will have great stories to hear from them when they come back. At least that is what I hope. I hope they go to the Redwood Forest and take pictures. I have always wanted to go there. So I would like to see some pictures from my friends. Those trees are fucking huge and gorgeous. I think they have some highways going through the base of them.

I know I have seen some pretty crazy pictures in National Geographic of the Redwood Forest. I hope they bring me back tourist gifts. I want an I *heart* L.A. shirt. I already got the I *heart* N.Y. shirt from when Kayla and Seb took off to New York. Anyone who hasn't gone to New York should go. I need to go again. I haven't been in many years. Of course I loved it. I don't think i would ever want to live there. I don't think I would want to live in the States at all. Though It does have some places that have year round warmth. I want to live in a place without winter. But I also want to live in a place without hurricans and floods. But you can't have everything. My brain seems to be functioning at a lower level this morning then is the norm. Every thought I have coming, I am struggling to express clearly. Which I want to be able to do. I try not to address anything that I don't think I can explain clearly and concisely. Do I express myself well? I am just not sure.

Because everything you are expressing already has been organized in your own mind for your own understanding. But it doesn't neccasarily mean everyone else who you shared it with does. Fuck you world. I am tired. Well, tired of typing. Tired of struggling to expressmyself. Tired of wondering what should be next to keep a linear post. Pff. Being orderly is over rated anyhow. So I am going to sign off on this. Talk to you all in the near or distant future or never. Depending on who you are and what you have done. Cheers!