Ideas... ideas... ideas... ideas... ideas...

So I know I told some of you about my idea to use my saved MSN conversations and cut and paste them into a story of sorts. Probably a short story. But when my Fatehr came here he went through them and read them and got on my ass. So I deleted them because it was none of his business and I hate him delving into my personal life. But I thought last night that my blog would be perfect to use for it. Plus I like the fact that it is all my intellectual property. Though I did like the idea of all my friends being contributors through conversations I had with them. I don't know if any of you don't know about the cut and paste method. William S. Burroughs utilized it extensively. Naked Lunch is a great example for an amazing book written in this method. But say I printed out all of my blog. I would just cut out individual words or phrases depending on how I wanted to use the different parts and just re-arrange them and write an actual story from words that were meant for something else and meant something else.

Now as you all know. I am a pretty fucked up human being. Most of you don't even know the half of it. I have some very strange ideas go through my head. Things I ponder and consider. Ideas that I find are fascinating but that I could never do in real life. So I want to write about them. Now most of my ideas are reflected upon my life and just taking it to that extreme step I could never actually do in reality. I will tell you about the top idea I have for a story to write about by cutting and pasting my blog. Most of you, if not all of you who read this know I live with my Grandma. This story is going to be loosely based on that. It will be loosely based on mine and my Grandmothers relationship. I figure you can write best what you know. I know a bit about what it is like to live with someone from two generations before you. Anyways. It will be about this Grandson who moves in with his Grandma after living some really fucked up yearts. She isn't fully aware of them but has an understanding that he has gone through rough times and needs her.

{Side Note: I have told most of you that I convinced my Grandma that when she gets older and in pain she will smoke weed with me. I am going to use that in the story which I will explain} Anyways he moves in with her to the city. Is responsible. has a job he likes. Makes enough money to get by have fun and bail out friends when neccasary. Anyways, living with an older person has this kind of affect on you. You work all day and engage in small talk all day. You come home to a senior who just talks about traffic and the news and the weather. It can be quite exhausting. So you just don't talk very much. Anyways, this character one day, his Grandmother is suffering glaucoma terribly and decides to take him up on his offer to smoke some marijuana with him. So he of course does give her some to smoke. She does feel better. But she starts with the small talk times ten. It has already kind of driven him to the brink of insanity. Because six days of the week, his perception of the world is that there is nothing more then traffic and weather.

His Grandma starts smoking daily with him. She smoking pot has made her more annoying to him. He needs some sort of change. He is not aware of where the idea comes from. Or where he lost his sense of morality. But he decides to start slipping crack into the weed he feeds her. Anyways I don't want to get into to many details about it because that would take a long time. But basically it is just about months of him experimenting with crack addiction on his Grandmother. Giving her all she wants somedays. Somedays just giving her weed and watching her break down to the addiction. Remember she is not aware she is addicted to crack. Because he can give her pot without crack and it will not satisfy her. She does not understand it and just believes all these things happening are symptoms of old age. He documents everything he sees. It will also focus on what seeing his Grandmother in so much pain and distress does to him as a human being. Because in that situation I believe you would lose your sense of humanity. So there will be a lot of focus on that as well. Anyways. If anyone thinks it is a bad idea let me know. But so far it is top on my list of what I am going to do with this blog's words. I think that is all I am going to write about today. Cheers!