MMMmmm... The A.M.

So here I am. Sitting here pondering why the fuck it is important to me to express myself on this electronic medium. Then it hit me. Because I am human. And we all like attention to varying degrees. I had a back and forth comment thing with some chick on myspace. She said something along the lines of "you have a healthy ego". Because I say I am better then everyone in my profile. I replied with "it is average. I just like to play with social insecurities on the internet where people take things far too seriously." Then she replied with, "Then you are just an attention seeker then." To which I replied, "Let me see here, I am human, so that would be a yes. Anyone who does not appear to want attention or sais they don't are lying or just more subtle." As you all know well I am not a very subtle person. Yet these people think they are geniuses and have me figured out. Though I slap them in the face with who I am. I think it is because she is asian. Those uptight asian bitches. I love them. Well it is the 19th of February. You know what that means? Spring isn't too far off! Fuck yes!! I have lots of plans for the summer. Lesley and I want to go to the Toronto Metro Zoo. Not many things make me happier then imprisoned animals. Unless they are on my plate going towards my mouth. Damn I think I need some bacon speaking of such. Inventory went well last night. When I say well, I mean it was a pain in the ass. But considering it was my first time doing it, I was pretty efficient and quick. The most time consuming part was converting cases to bottles then entering all the SKU numbers into the system. We have over 47,000 dollars worth of stock. The company payed 6,000 dollars for it. So I discovered they make a fucking SHITLOAD of money. That is a crazy mark up. I am just thoroughly excited about this upcoming year in general. I don't plan on having this one tainted by stupid bitches. Names need not be mentioned and all you all are nodding your heads saying, "yep, that she was." Even last summer I was doing a bunch of back and forth shit with a bitch. But this summer I have no emotional baggage and I can just enjoy it carefree. My goal is to make this summer better then every other summer of my life. Which will be difficult because I have had great summers. But I do live in the GTA now. So I think it is very feasible. Fuck, even considering it is winter. I am having a great time here. Cold doesn't hold us back from partying in Toronto. I have been pretty much every weekend. With gorgeous human beings too. I am going to be seeing Jon again soon which makes me happy. Devon's raving brings him into the town which I like. He sent me this nice e-mail the other day. See Jon is one of those character's that has a very sensitive conscience. He was wondering if I was awkward around him at all about certain drama from the past. Which I reassured him it was completely water under the bridge and that I honestly do trust him completely. I am quite sure this past experience pretty much ensures it never happening again. Jon is someone who learns from life experience. Because he is a good man. It will be warmer when he comes up hopefully. So we won't freeze our balls off this time when we are walking around Toronto. Though I have discovered how incredible long johns are. I wear them when I go out now all the time. Under shirts as well. Tight layers underneath loose ones, really retain your body heat well. I will never go without again in the winter. Unless I move to the carribean. Then in December I will go for polar dips. And it won't suck ass. I don't understand people who like to go swimming in sub-zero temperatures. Who cares if it is healthy. I am sure running ten miles uphill is too. How many people you see doing that? Hardly anyone. You know why. Because it would suck. How about you just turn off the heat in your home for a few days. That way you would save energy while freezing your ass off. Oh I am supposed to write things about people I love. I think I forgot the last few posts. Hmmm. I think I will write about my Mother. Caring incredible woman. I wish she wasn't so brainwashed by religion. She is very intelligent. But it has been hampered by being submissive to a husband who is a douche bag. She hasn't really lived life. She needs to go out and get filled by some large black cock. That would open her up a bit. Even though I am sure she is quite open just by all the babies she has had. But really. I do love my Mom a lot. The fact that I will most likely out live her makes me very sad. I don't want to ever have to handle the death of my AMother. But I guess worse things can happen. So I will deal with it just like you have to deal with everything in life. I love you Mother. Very much. You were my first love and always will be. Anyways I am going to wrap this up. Have a lovely day. Well those of you I like who read this. All you other fucks who read this can fuck off and die. I mean that with sugar and spice of course. And maybe some things nice.