Since all this family shit has gone down, it has affected me in a way I have never been affected before. I don't really want to go out and do anything. I didn't go to Toronto this weekend even though I am off today. That pretty much never happens. I feel guilty if I have fun. Fuck I haven't even been able to masturbate in a couple weeks. Trust me. That never happens normally. But all you people that I love, it is nothing against you if I haven't seen you in a bit. Fuck. I haven't even met Ender Dowdall yet. And to top it all off, Detroit won last night. It just isn't in the stars for me right now. My horoscope said I would meet someone new today. Does the internet count?