A little bit of semen in the shower

Well. This is me back from work safe and sound. No green masters of torture visited me in my daydream state. No communists stole my dinner. But I definately was raped by the clock. The inevitable slow down of time during activities that is deemed neccesary to do. But unwanted on the whole. Don't get me wrong. My job is great. But only great in comparison to other jobs. Not great as opposed to being with friends being caught up in discourse about something or other that we may think is important in that little milli-something of the universes existence. Trying to appear unapathetic. But knowinng that we all are. That we are powerless to fight history that is in the making will continue to make itself with or without us in the same dreary boring state of corruption. A word on my tongue will never change anything. It is the gun in theirs that will. We like to believe ideas and words are powerful. They want us to believe that so we keep on sticking to that useless formula. Let's just keep getting 'em with our words Jack. They is goin' to fold any minute. What is happening is what is supposed to happen. There is no wrong. There is only wrong in comparison to what you do and how it affects other living beings. But to me and myself. I can do no wrong. Neither can you. If you weren't doing things that affected anything else. If you were a singular and the only one in the universe. Wrong will cease to exist. I won't be offending or hurting others. I won't be killing an ozone. I won't ever.. EVER.. be in the wrong. Imagine if we all lived by that now? Would we be enlightened? Or would we be in hell? It is a social experiment that will never be tried. Or maybe we are living that way. Only covering it up. We do all lie. We do this because of our low self-esteem in being "wrong". I just want change. I don't care whether it is "goood" or "bad". Both those ideas are subjective anyway. I think I will see it. Our world will change fast in the next 50 years. No matter how it changes. It will fascinate me greatly. We all need to stop dreading the future. We need to embrace it as an inevitability. Same with death. We are all afraid of dying of something or other. We live fueled by fear. Whether you will blame global warming, the republicans, the bird flu, AIDS, Negros, drugs, cancer, etc etc etc, you will die anyway. Even if we "cure" the world of all this. If we become unafraid of death. We will be less powerless.